Hey there... Its 1:10 am now... I'm supposed to be in bed now, but just feel that there are a lot of things on my mind. Haven't had much time to spend with God this weekend. Although I have been in church the past 2 days and going again later... Was in church for megapraise just now. People said that it was very good. Praise God! Although there were many things that were against us... For example, Jeremy didn't come for all of the practices... (there were only 3!) Joe had to leave early most of the time. Shaoxiong was tired cos he'd just came back from Malaysia an hour before megapraise. I was also kinda tired because of the jamming I had from 2pm to 4pm. We weren't sure of sequences, styling, rhythm... things like that. But what amazed me was how God used us when we let Him. How things like impressing people with how we play doesn't matter! It really doesn't. I think we scrapped the last 2-3 songs because of the way the worship was flowing. We even went into spontaneous singing. The unplanned type!!! Which still amazes me. Those who are in worship ministry would understand what I mean. Well, played till the blister on my index finger broke... I think I used 10 bandages on my fingers today. Had to tape the drumstick to my right finger also because I couldn't grip the stick. :P

I wrote a letter last night and poured my feelings into it. Turns out its like a summary of what I've been blogging for the past 7 months? I realise that sometimes I have absolutely no willpower at all... I give in too easily to some people. Its kind of sickening... Don't understand myself sometimes. You need to spend time with God, daryl... You're getting off track. But at least I'm able to focus on other things now... At least I'm able to be joyful in spite of this... At least I'm able to serve Him still... At least its not my whole world crumbling again... At least I'm able to be able to view life beyond this... At least. But it'll always be part of me. Maybe there is a future for me after all... You have the rest of your life, daryl... Use it!!!

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who is constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to his head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who will always cheer them up and help them out.